well its been a while since i had visited this blog. Indeed. there had been lots things happening around here. Well, all is well between me and Ry and there is something going on between Ry an I. Well, they may do what they want.. huhuh.. and leave me bleeding behind. Anyway, the post valentine party was great. There had been lot of fun and indeed it was fun for me. Ry was there all night at my side. Protecting and guarding me. It was so sweet when he hugged me so close. Sigh! i just wished that that night wouldnt end. The moment that i would really really treasure was that when he put his hands over my shoulder and whispered to me " dont dance to much,. its ok if you dance with alex but not with the other guys". By what does he suppose to mean by that? Next, at the drop shot, he hugged me so close when i was overly drunk. He whispered sweet words to me.. telling me how much he cared for me. tsk tsk.. can i take more with this.. lol.. anyway.. i dont know if it was just a dream. Somehow. i felt that he kissed me. Somewhere in my temple. in my forehead.. neh.. i dont know.. heheh But the other day.. When i asked him to come to join with me in my duty. he did came.. wow.. it was so cool!! it was just spoiled when we went home. It was I who came running toward him, and will be the one who will ride his Bike.. Darn!! hahaha..
the other day was sweet too, He had given me my FUdgee bar!! wee, that was way cooler than ever,, and he had ginve I a cracker...
darn! what am i expecting from him.. ahg agh agh.. it hurts so much when he is being sweet.. yesterday.. he made up my hair. he closed my face over his hands.. feels like we are ready to ki** shit.. If only.. haha but right now, i had notice something new. or it was not new., it was there that i just rencently had noticed. or i had recently put myself aware of. hahah well, I am 100% sure that I like him. I can see the way her face glow. Eyes shine, Smiles bright. Laugh hard when he is around. Seems like i was seeing myself in her months ago.. I think that was my face before when i havent had learned the word control.. Anyway.. I can see now the clear picture that I is falling for him and I hated it. Why? cos she is copying me! i mean, she is doing what i am doing, following me, its a pain in the ass. If she wanted him,. why not try it in her own way. dUh!!!
and Ry, I dont think he notices it too. but if he is, well. he is playing dumb.. well. should i be bothered? cos i am .. right now i am!!!! ahh. when will this feeling put to an end. I want my feelings to stop but i still want the friendship that i have. I dont like the feeling of getting hurt from time to time everytime he mentions her current Gf much more when he jokes around with I. It stings you know.. I dont want to bitch around but as i said., If its the way it goes, i will play it that way..
and by the way I, get your own BFF!!! your nothing but a copy cat bitch!!!!
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